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- November 26, 2008
Litratong Pinoy: eulogy
these are the flowers we received from a cyber-friend, sha…thanks dear! as i’ve said, it was the sweetest gesture. *hugs*!
[ito ang mga bulaklak na nanggaling sa isang blog friend, si Sha of Wanderlustsha ilang linggo na ang nakaraan. salamat muli sa pag-alala sa mga oras ng aming kalungkutan…]
as i share the eulogy i prepared for my mom who passed away 25 days ago due to Aneurysm…i feel that i have to journal this one way or the other…
[matagal ko nang naumpisahan ang lahok kong ito na nasa draft mode, hinintay ko lang ang pinaka-akmang tema para sa Litratong Pinoy…]
In times of deepest grief like this, we are only left with the knowledge that our dear mama has found peace at last with her Creator and the thought that she is finally together with papa will help us get through the experience of losing her. This in itself is something to celebrate about. She has earned it and has finally succeeded.
Bittersweet as it may seem, the very recent and last time we were all together has brought so much joy in our hearts, but most importantly to mama. She has always dreamt about us being complete once more, be it here in the States, Canada or in Manila. The trip that was almost impossible was made possible and was truly a dream come true that we will forever cherish. This will only leave us with good memories of her, finally together with her beloved family. Up to the last few days, she wanted to do everything for us…from making Samia’s favorite biko to Marco’s request for her to cook her kaldereta, giving more than she can ever give. Now Chino is asking, ‘who will buy me my electric guitar?’:]
It’s also sad, because it had to end in a matter of 21 days. I can never forget mama’s tightest hug then and how she looked at me while she was in the car when it was time to go to the airport as if she was going to say something. Now I know what it was.
A few days before she passed away, on papa’s birthday, she called me while she was at Himlayan. During those few minutes that we talked, there is no denying that her voice was filled with hope and joy and when we had to hang up, I wanted to say ‘I love you, mama’ but was not able to.
We can say that this is so sudden, so unexpected…but what isn’t? Knowing mama, ate Ine, auntie Ine or Zeny to some, she proved to be the strong woman that she is even up to her last breath. She never wanted anyone to go through the pain of seeing her leave. She’d rather not be a burden to anybody. As much as she can, she always does everything on her own. Mama may have gone ahead of us to be with the Lord and with papa, but this is only so she can start ‘building’ the best house there is for us, her children, as she welcomes us when our time comes, when it is already spic and span, ready to be lived in. This is her ultimate passion, her legacy…and this is what she wants us to remember her by.
As for me, I am who I am because of her and there is nothing more I can ask for. She is my strength, my teacher, my number one critique…our MAMA. I am confident that we will be fine because now she doesn’t have to fly from one place to another to watch over all of us, most especially her dearest apos…I LOVE YOU MA!
….the eulogy i made for mama. i cannot come home to pay my last respects and so my sister read this during the mass for her interment. i appreciate all the prayers and warm thoughts…from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU!
[siguro napili ko ang 
para sa pagkakataong ito dahil kayo ang isa sa mga naging kandungan ko sa mga araw na kailangan ko ng kaibigan…salamat!]
Zenaida Salonga Mactal
August 7, 1944 - November 1, 2008
Eternal rest grant unto her soul oh Lord…and let perpetual light shine upon her.
May she rest in peace. Amen.
24 Responses to “Litratong Pinoy: eulogy”
ces beautiful words… am so touched of that piece. I did not know your mum but we always have this odd talks about her coming for vacation… etc as if I knew her as well.
hugs xxx am in tears reading this.
sha’s last blog post..heaven in my mouth?
By sha on Nov 26, 2008
awww, this made me cry. mommy’s girl din kasi ako. on my wedding day, sabi ko rin sa mommy ko, “all that i am, and all that i have, are because of you”.
hay naku ces, i can’t stop crying now.
Munchkin Mommy’s last blog post..LP #35: Ang Pagwawagi
By Munchkin Mommy on Nov 26, 2008
naiyak ako…kasi may sakit ang nanay ko ngayon…i lost my dad 2 years ago…
pero alam ko mahal ako ng Panginoon…di nya ako pababayaan.
Salamat sa pagbabahagi.
Eloise’s last blog post..ANG PAGWAWAGI
By Eloise on Nov 26, 2008
Hi cez. ako man ay naiyak din. Kasama ko pa mga magulang ko kaya nga lahat ng magmamahal at higit na pag galang ay binibigay ko sa kanila.
isang paalala ito para sa lahat ng anak.
jeanny’s last blog post..Christmas is near
By jeanny on Nov 26, 2008
salamat ces. napaalala mo sa akin na dapat kong gawing memorable ang bawat sandaling kapiling ko ang mga mahal ko sa buhay lalo na ang aking mga magulang.
GOD bless you and your family.
Linnor’s last blog post..LP: Ang Pagwawagi (Triumph)
By Linnor on Nov 26, 2008
Ces, pinanalo mo si mama mo sa pagiging matatag mo, at mapag mahal na anak.
Thess’s last blog post..Restoring the past
By Thess on Nov 26, 2008
That was a sweet eulogy. Nakakaiyak nga! Pero nandun na s’ya sa langit kasama ‘yong papa mo. She knew how much you loved her eventhough you didn’t get to say it.
God bless,
Ayen
By ayen on Nov 26, 2008
ces, your mom is probably looking down at you right now and is very very happy and victorious at what she sees. even though I didn’t know your mom personally, your eulogy made me feel that even I lost an old friend. god bless, ces.
By Meeya on Nov 26, 2008
Isang tunay na pagwawagi ang buhay ng iyong ina. Ang indikasyon nito ang mabuting kalagayan ng mga naiwan niya at ang kanyang pagpanaw ay dapat maging rason ng pagbubunyi. Siya ngayon ay nasa kamay ng Maykapal!
If it is any consolation, I posted a video on a previous LP post. You might want to see it again. http://pic.blogspot.com/2008/11/kinagisnan.html
By Junnie on Nov 26, 2008
Ces, I had a lump in my throat the whole time I was reading your very heartfelt entry. I am sure your mom beams at you from heaven - seeing how well she has raised you into a very strong yet sensitive woman.
My prayers go out to you and your family as you cope with your most difficult loss.
Pinky’s last blog post..LP #35: Ang Pagwawagi
By Pinky on Nov 26, 2008
Hi Ces, it’s always hard to loose someone you love, especially if it’s your Mom…
there were 5 words that comforted me when my mom passed away, a friend told me “she has served her purpose”…
i know that your mom is looking down at you and she is very proud of you…
May God bless you and your entire family…
lino’s last blog post..ang pagwawagi?
By lino on Nov 26, 2008
ang ganda ng iyong salita para sa iyong Mama. Siguradong proud na proud siya sa iyo. Hindi madali ang mawalan ng magulang. Panalangin ko ay sa inyo.
By Marites on Nov 26, 2008
ces, it’s wonderful you have such a different perspective of your mom passing away. more than anything, i think we should celebrate a person’s life when he/she leaves us.
hope your family find peace and comfort in Him as well.
Hugs!
iris’s last blog post..Begin with the end [lp]
By iris on Nov 26, 2008
hi! tama ka nga. ang kamatayan ay pagwawagi dahil makakasama na natin ang ating Tagapaglikha kung san wala ng hirap, sakit o kalungkutan. Nkakalungkot sabihin pero hindi kami close ng nanay ko pero alam kong mahal na mahal ko sya at gagawin ang lahat ma-protektahan lang sya sa anumang sakit sa kalooban o paghihirap. Tama ka, wala tayo kung wala sila.
purplesea’s last blog post..LP 35: ANg PagWaWagi
By purplesea on Nov 26, 2008
beautiful words ces….naiyak ako. I’m sure your mom’s very happy now. My prayer goes out to you and your family…
peachkins’s last blog post..LP: Ang Pagwawagi
By peachkins on Nov 26, 2008
my prayers goes with you and the rest of your family.
now i missed my mom more than ever.
FickleMinded’s last blog post..LP#9:Ang Pagwawagi
By FickleMinded on Nov 26, 2008
Ganyan din ang pakiramdam ko nung mamatay si daddy, kaya kahit malungkot, hindi naman ako sobrang nasaktan o nagdamdam. Ako at ang aking pamilya ay lubos na nakikisimpatya.
Ang LP entry naming magkapatid ay makikita dito at dito. Sana makadaan ka kung may oras ka. Salamat!
ShutterHappyJenn’s last blog post..Pagwawagi (Triumph)
By ShutterHappyJenn on Nov 26, 2008
Ces, wagi ang entry mo, eto, iyak ako ng iyak.
Virtual hugs again to you, dear Ces.
By julie on Nov 27, 2008
I’m sorry about your mother, may she rest in eternal peace.
that was a beautiful peace of eulogy indeed, a well deserved tribute to her.
By pining on Nov 27, 2008
Every word is filled with love. I admire your strength. God bless you and your family.
Lynn’s last blog post..Chill
By Lynn on Nov 27, 2008
naiiyak ako ces talaga…
i will tell you why pagnagkita tayo sa YM….
iska’s last blog post..Roast Chicken Stew (with Home-made Lechon Sauce!)
By iska on Nov 28, 2008
==hugs==
Ces, no comment eh.
G_mirage’s last blog post..Photo Hunt - Reflection
By G_mirage on Nov 28, 2008
Ces, that was a very beautiful eulogy for your mom. I was teary-eyed the whole time I was reading it.
Clicking Away’s last blog post..LP032 - Maalaala Mo Kaya
By Clicking Away on Nov 29, 2008
Dearest Cecille,
I can’t control my emotions reading your very beautiful eulogy for Ate Ine. Your every word is filled with love and longing for your Mama. I still feel the same emotions for your Lolo, your Papa, your Tito Oca, your Tita Mimi and now … your Mama … our Ate.
For nine (9) days, in the house of your Lola in Gagalangin, we made sure na may nightly “padasal” even on her “40th” day. Same with my prayer community here, we had 2 Fridays of Rosario Cantada for Ate Ine … and every Friday thereafter her name is included in the list of those who have gone ahead of us.
The last time we had a long talk was during the wake of your Tito Oca in Pulilan, Bulacan. She told me endless stories about Samantha and Chino and even mentioned Chino’s winning in a game … “very smart boy” according to her. She missed them so much.
God bless you, Marco, Samantha & Chino. Please do not forget us. We will always pray for all of you. Please keep in touch. If you can give me your e-mail address and CP #, the better. A lot of times I wanted to call you or send you an e-mail but I don’t any of your contact info. I am still here in Saudi Arabia working for Saudi Aramco.
Love,
Tito Pol
By Pol L. Mactal on Jan 4, 2009